So here we are the beginning of a new year. Looking back, 2018 was a decent year and I am very grateful for the many blessings in my life. That said the end of the year kind of went off plan as far as continuing to make progress in the gym. In fact I have not trained in the last 3 months.
Life got very stressful at the end of September. I find it difficult if not impossible to train when I get really stressed out. Many people find training to be their therapy or stress relief. I wish that was the case for me but so far it does not seem to work that way.
The good news is my wife Chris and I went on our first ever cruise to the Caribbean the end of November. This really helped to reduce my stress. Things are slowly getting better and I want to get back in the gym in 2019.
It’s hard to lay out a road map when the way forward is unclear. For now I will simply start by taking a step in the right direction and hope that I can continue. The goal is to still hopefully get on stage in May of 2020 but the path to get there is uncertain at this point. I can’t wait until all the stars align to begin. Ultimately I lift weights to look good and feel good. I can do that without ever getting on the stage so I might as well get back to it.
Ultimately I just want to get back to a place were I love training again. Right now I don’t feel like that. I see this giant mountain in front of me (getting on stage in 2020). Part of me wants to stand on top but another part is questioning is it worth the sacrifice? Good thing is I don’t have to answer that at the moment, I just need to get back into the gym on a regular bases.